[Chris at that moment looks like he wants to disappear into the floor from shame. He hugs his elbows and won't look up, looking stunned that somewhere he'd found the courage to finally admit what he was.

True, it was to Mark Lilly, who seemed to be less like a person and more like a motivational poster with legs, but at least it was to someone]

No. Yes. No, I mean.

Fuck.

No, it's just some days it's always on my mind and some days I don't think about it at all.